She said, "Ginger, who are you?"
Those four words made my chest tighten and my eyes water. I was blank. I felt vulnerable and exposed and I wanted nothing more than to burst into tears and scream I don't know!!! Instead, I mustered up a response, laughed it off and made my way through the rest of the meeting, but when I went home that night I knew I had some real work to do.
I was taking a personal development class at the time and wouldn't you know it, I ended up having an assignment where I would later have the opportunity to do that work by writing a document about who I am. What terrifyingly, beautiful timing. Good move universe, good move.
So, Who am I?
I have had several standard responses to that over the years, but in recent years as I have grown and changed I have found them feeling less and less authentic to me. I had gotten to this place where I knew what no longer defined me, but I was left feeling abandoned and afraid looking for what DID define me. I can't tell you how raw and naked I felt not knowing what defined me.
So here I was, feeling raw and exposed and staring at a blank page on a computer, ready to write this document boldly stating who I am, and I was lost. But as it turns out, life knows a thing or two about creating greatness. Turns out, feeling lost, raw, vulnerable and exposed are a perfect concoction to getting down to the good stuff. I sat down and combined my thoughts and feelings with words from my mentors, teachers and dearest friends that together all defined who I want to be, and how I want to feel about myself and when I was done, my very soul became visible. I had a glimpse of ME. And now, I am sharing that part of me with you.
WHO I AM
I am not my fears. I am not what I have, I am not my
culture, my body or my DNA. I am not
my thoughts, my beliefs, my emotions, my words or even my
actions. I am not what I do. I am not my
success or my failures. I am not my strengths nor my
weaknesses. I am not my income or possessions. I
am not my hats or my labels. I am not who you think I am.
I am pure love. I am a soul and a spirit made up of truth
and boundless light. I am a piece of a
loving and kind universe. I am a part of nature, part of a
cooperative in the universe. I am separate from
no one and no thing. Who I am is who you are, we are a
divine oneness. I am, because we are.
My worth is infinite and inherent, as is everyone’s. Because
I am now more consciously aware of my
worth, I will engage the world from a place of worthiness. I
am continually expanding my knowledge
of my light and my worth and as I do so, I continue to
surrender to the beauty of my authentic self.
Embracing what is authentic to me in my duality and
humanness. Recognizing and embracing my
unique strengths and my perfect imperfections. Knowing that
I alone am not enough, but that as a co-
creator with God and the universe I am whole.
I choose to be who I want to be, not what the world wants me
to be and knowing there is no
right or wrong way to be, I claim my life to be my own, and
take full responsibility and accountability
for the way I experience this life. Because I alone am
responsible for how I experience this life, I also
appoint Ginger as CEO, owner and operator, president,
secretary, general manager and THE person of
authority of all things Ginger-related.
I am a visionary. I am a creator. I see how things are and
dream wide-eyed of how they could be.
I embrace my duality in desire for both realism and
idealism. I crave wonder and child-like enthusiasm,
for I am just a child to the universe.
I am a beginner. I allow myself the right and privilege of
being a beginner, to be okay not
knowing everything, and to feel safe and supported as I learn and gain
experience while I grow. I remove from myself and others from the burden of expectations for we are all beginners, all
children and students of the universe, and after all, expertise is all relative anyway.
And so, who am I?
I am who I choose to be. And today, I choose to be WHOLE-HEARTED.
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